Where Have I Been?

I have been gone for a minute, hints why I haven’t posted in a while, but I was taking a little time to get my stuff together. Being an adult didn’t come with an instruction manual and it’s hard sometimes but you live and you learn. Sometimes I wish that I can just wake up and have my career all together plus be married with kids because this in between is killing me. Everyone that I went to school with is in college, having kids, traveling and getting married and I’m just here trying to figure out if I can get away with camo joggers with my favorite teal hoodie and grey uggs (a mess I know , I love it) . I know what I want to do, but getting it started is the tricky part since there are so many ways I can go about it. You see I want to do natural hair and for the last year and a half that’s exactly what I’ve been doing (amongst other things like babysitting , which I don’t do anymore, try it…. just wasn’t for me). I love doing hair but then you got people telling me that doing hair isn’t a realistic job. There are so many words I’d love to say and places I would love to tell those people to go but me being the person that I am…. ill just let them talk. Now, I love seeing the people around me succeed (I’m not a hater like people I know). It makes me want to do better. I’m never jealous it’s all love.  The way my mind works is that I can literally talk myself out of a good situation. I hate that I overthink things and that I have all of these people in my life trying to tell me what I should be doing. So now if anyone was to give their unwanted opinion I will surely say “well since your giving me life tips, let me give you some” see how they like it. I’m only twenty and yeah I don’t have my life figured out yet but I don’t need all these people in my ear telling me what I should do. I will do what I want and if I need your opinion I will ask…. Okay …. Good! With all that good stuff being said I’m going to try to write more. My little brother reminded me the other day about how much I love to write and that I literally hit this funk right after I stop doing what I love to do.