So I’m turning twenty on May 18, I don’t know how I feel about that. I’m kind of in denial because I will no longer be in the “teens” no more. Even though I legally became an adult when I was eighteen it just feel so real right now because I’m going to be twenty. I have one day left to be my nineteen year old self and I really just want to lay in bed, watch movies and sleep. I remember it like it was just yesterday when I turned sixteen, that when life just started going real fast for me and now I have been out of high school for almost two years, mostly all of my friend are getting married, having kids, going to college, switching their majors for the millionth time and some are dropping out because they realized that college just isn’t for them. Then there is me watching all this play out but I’m not mad because it’s my life and I can take my time when it comes to figuring out who I want to be , what I want to be and where I want to be just like everyone else. To be completely honest I am very happy to be starting this new chapter in my life and for real I never really feel any different when I turn a new age, I don’t feel it till I turn the next age and that why I am always in denial. Let’s go Twenties I’m ready for you.
I was just sitting in my room and I was thinking to myself “I wish I could just get rid of everything and start again”. I know that I’m not the only one who wishes that they could just throw everything away, but then you look at your funds and realize that you can’t ball out to replace everything, even if you don’t replace everything just the important things, like clothes and furniture.
I really want to get rid of all my clothes because some of them, no lie, I’ve had them since 7th grade ,which is crazy. I would get some new stuff thought out my 7th to 12th grade years, but it like I took good care of my clothes and I’ve been the same height and somewhat the same size since then so they stayed fitting me.My parents, mostly my dad, would get me clothes that was a couple of sizes too big. My mom on the other hand would get me clothes I actually like and that could fit me comfortably. I kept them all and since I graduated I haven’t really gotten any new clothes.
I have a really big urge to just throw all my bedroom furniture away ,as well ,because my bed frame that I use to have, I got it for my 15th birthday and I had got it from Ikea. It was a beautiful frame ,but it didn’t have the wood board thing that hold up your mattress so I had to improvise and use my old box spring and 4 medium size plastic creates at the four corners of the inside part of the bed frame so the box spring wouldn’t break the metal rails, it was just a situation. Right now though my mattress plus box spring is located on my floor, minus my bed frame because the frame was doing the most so I just got rid of it. Now I’m dying to do a full-out “Pimp Up” my bedroom. What I did was to get me motivated to give my room this total makeover is I made a list on my amazon and put everything that I want to get for my room. I also been looking on Groupon and Wanelo, so now all I need is to save up the mula.
Things would be so much easier if I would just reach in the screen and grab what I need.