Overcoming Your Fears…

Let’s talk for a minute, everyone has something that they fear. It can be the smallest thing, but to them it so big. I don’t even want to say it a fear, but rather a something that you don’t want to happen though when it does happen you get a little uneasy. In these situations I tend to psych myself out which seems to be the only way that I can cope with handling what has to be done.

Today, for instance, I had to talk to a total stranger on the phone to get a service that I needed done (you know like when you need to make a doctor’s appointment, get something in your house fixed, call a cab, etc.). I know that everyone is a stranger until you  talk to them or get to know them. I also know some people you known for a very long time can become a stranger, that is a different story for another time. I’m not good with talking on the phone because I always go over what I want to say, but then once I get on the phone I forget everything that I wanted to say, I get nervous and I pause a lot. I did that yesterday and I did it today. The weird thing is that I’m really good with talking to people face to face, but over the phone has always been a problem for me. I’m just not a phone person. My mom said that I’m gonna have to get use to it and I’m sure that one day I will…just not today. I will however use my keeping cool tactics so that I can get it done. What I usually do is listen to my favorite song then after that I just go for it ,which I did and I never would’ve done it  if I hadn’t push myself to. Go me!

 Overcoming your fears can take time, but it’s not impossible. Just believe that you can do it and you will.  

Out With The Old And In With The New!

I was just sitting in my room and I was thinking to myself “I wish I could just get rid of everything and start again”. I know that I’m not the only one who wishes that they could just throw everything away, but then you look at your funds and realize that you can’t ball out to replace everything, even if you don’t replace everything just the important things, like clothes and furniture.

I really want to get rid of all my clothes because some of them, no lie, I’ve had them since 7th grade ,which is crazy. I would get some new stuff thought out my 7th to 12th grade years, but it like I took good care of my clothes and I’ve been the same height and somewhat the same size since then so they stayed fitting me.My parents, mostly my dad, would get me clothes that was a couple of sizes too big. My mom on the other hand would get me clothes I actually like and that could fit me comfortably. I kept them all and since I graduated I haven’t really gotten any new clothes.

I have a really big urge to just throw all my bedroom furniture away ,as well ,because my bed frame that I use to have, I got it for my 15th birthday and I had got it from Ikea. It was a beautiful frame ,but it didn’t have the wood board thing that hold up your mattress so I had to improvise and use my old box spring and 4 medium size plastic creates at the four corners of the inside part of the bed frame so the box spring wouldn’t break the metal rails, it was just a situation. Right now though my mattress plus box spring is located on my floor, minus my bed frame because the frame was doing the most so I just got rid of it. Now I’m dying to do a full-out “Pimp Up” my bedroom. What I did was to get me motivated to give my room this total makeover is I made a list on my amazon and put everything that I want to get for my room. I also been looking on Groupon and Wanelo, so now all I need is to save up the mula.

Things would be so much easier if I would just reach in the screen and grab what I need.

Just a Normal Day

Personal rant….

When I had woke up on this lovely Monday morning, or should I say last Monday morning, I didn’t expect for it to go the way that it did but it did everyone and they momma way trying me this day.

I was outside watching Lady and one of her little “friends” with her little friend had come up and she had a box of fruit roll ups and they had given Lady and I one of them. When lady was done with hers she had asked for another one and they was like “No It’s only for us”. I’m thinking to myself why in the heck would you bring a big box of fruit roll ups in front of people if you know that they’re going to want some, like girl do you think?….. Or you thought you was just gonna be stingy, not very smart of you. So anyway after that they was just playing and riding their bikes being the bad little children that they are, then her momma came home thank the lord, my job was done and I couldn’t wait to get away from those kids.

Now I’m in the house mind you it hasn’t even been five minutes since I been off my babysitting duties that it was about to go down. I went upstairs to my room, took off my shoes then went into the bathroom and I was about to get in the shower y’all, but it was interrupted because I heard a noise. Me being me I walked over to my bedroom window and I saw her, Lady’s little “friends”, take her cars from her backyard without asking her, now let’s hold on for a second and get a back story on Lady real quick she is very shy and she don’t like saying no, well she says no to me and she don’t listen to me but when it comes to other people she don’t like saying no, she is sort of a push over, what happen next though totally surprised me. Back to what I was saying so they took the play cars out and they started riding in them, Lady, on the other hand, was on her way to her other best friend’s house so she was like “ I don’t want no one on my cars. Can you put them back?” (she just took my breath away I was so proud of her) and the one little girl, I’ll call her “Sassy”, she was like “I’m not your friend anymore” then she told the other little girl who came with her, I’ll call her “Follower” because that’s what she is, to come with her when she did that. I couldn’t believe what I had seen, Follower walked passed lady and hit her in her face. I was mad I could spit, I was livid. I ran back into the bathroom to grab my headband and ran back in my room to put my shoes on and I ran downstairs because I was going to put some little kids in they place right quick and in a respectable way with a mature tone. When I got outside mannnn I was out of breathe, I went over to Lady and she was with her other friends about to walk to their house and I asked her “Did she just hit you?” and of course she answered like she didn’t know what was going on. She said “I don’t know”. I just looked at her because its like girl you was standing right there and you was the one that was hit so is it a yes or a no? Her other little friends was like “Yes she did and they’re in the back”, that was all I need to know. I marched my butt to the backyard where they was playing on Lady’s playground (they didn’t ask to be on that either … like what is wrong with kids? Don’t you ask first?) and I said “I’m not here for the rudeness and since you said you not her friend no more then get off her stuff….thank you” and you know what those little girls had the nerves to do, they rolled they eyes at me like they serious better be glad I know my place because it was about to be a situation. I was about to cut some eyes out the sockets.

I say all this to say that I have notice that little kids are quick to throw the “I’m not your friend anymore” when they don’t get their way and they are also quick when they want to be your friend again. I try to tell Lady that you don’t need people like that because it good to know who is real from who is fake. I was also teaching her as well as those other kids that I am not the on honey, I am not the one. You got to teach them early because no one ever taught me about the fake friend, I had to learn the hard way and that was not fun but it made me the strong person I am today.

Well That’s Not Weird At All…

I really don’t understand kids sometimes and wonder if I used to do the same when I was younger, but then again if I did I would remember …right? I have a good memory….sort of.

It was a regular day and I had just got finish getting “Lady” (nickname for the little girl I babysit) dressed and usually after I get her dressed I ask her what she want to today for a snack which is always the same thing, fruit loops, but not today she wanted eggs. Now, when she said she wanted eggs she told me that her mom knows how to make eggs, its like she was saying that only her mom knows how to make eggs, scrambled eggs, but little did she know that scrambled eggs are the easiest to make. So I told her that I knew how to make eggs and she kept going on about her mom that I just let her talk and let my work show for itself. Fast forward to after school, I made her some cheesy scrambled eggs because that’s what she wanted and she loved them, point for Shienna y’all. After she ate ,she put her dishes near the sink because she couldn’t reach inside the sink, then it happened she came back and sat in her designated chair for like five minutes then she got up and smelt it. I looked at her smelling the chair and I asked “what are you doing?” and for real I wasn’t ready for what she was about to tell me because this child is always doing the craziest things but she said “smelling my poots”. I didn’t know how to reply to what she just said so I was like “umm…why?” and she was like “I wanted to know what it smelt like”, lawwwwd why me. I literally just looked at her and went back to looking at the movie while she laughed at me because I made the most confused face ever. This is my life man… I just can’t.    

Just One of Those Days

I had a whole list of things that I have to do today, but of course I haven’t even started and its almost 3 o clock in the afternoon. Here is what I actually have done today:

–          Babysat.

–          Ate breakfast & watched Empire on Hulu.

–          Did Zumba.

–          Clean up the house.

–          Watched YouTube videos. (still currently doing this till I have to babysit)

–          I also made a bloglovin and I’m trying to figure out how to add my blog. (<a href=”http://www.bloglovin.com/blog/14845417/?claim=u4mddrtaddh”>Follow my blog with Bloglovin</a>)

I not sure what’s wrong with me because I know that I have stuff to do, but it seems like nothing is motivating me right now. Maybe I might get in the groove later, but for right now I need to chill because I am tired…but I haven’t done much lol.


Epic Rap Battle

Yesterday after I had gotten the little girl that I babysit of the bus (let’s name her “lady” because I don’t want to use her actual name and that is actually the nickname that I call her) off the bus, we came to my house and I made her a snack, she loves fruit loops so I got her that, and I asked her what she wanted to do and she said I want to watch “Monsters High: Boo York” ….again. There is a lot of singing and dancing in that movie and we was like trying to copy them since we done seen the movie before, mind you I have never been interested in watching “monster High” until I started watching her. In between the music scenes of the movie we started making rhymes and let me tell you we were terrible. We started making up words and when we thought that we was world’s greatest rappers,  we’d say things like Boom! Bam! To give you an example of ours rhymes Lady was like “I went to the store by the door on the floor….Bam!” and I said “I have a cat and a rat with a bat like Tom and Jerry…..bOOm! Then my little brother came downstairs and was like “You guys suck” and I said “Like you could do better” (which I knew he could because he actually can rap) ,but he didn’t do anything about it he just put his headphones back on and made him some noodles then went back to his room. The rap battle continued whoop whoop! Which just kept getting worst. I think I’ll stick to singing and I won’t be a rapper. I also thing that she should stick to drawing because we would both be broke trying to chase this dream.

Liebster Award

Thank you so much to Grace of the “A Sprinkle Of Brunette Fun” blog for nominating me for the Liebster Award. I love your blog, you have amazing post. It made my day waking up to your comment on my blog.


The Liebster Award is an online award for bloggers to gain more support and recognition, and just to get to know the person behind the blog. It also helps others to discover new blogs and to build a sense of community in the blogging world.


  • Thank the blogger(s) who nominated you.
  • Answer the 11 questions the blogger gives you.
  • Nominate 5-11 bloggers that you think are deserving of the award.
  • Let the bloggers know you nominated them.
  • Give them 11 questions of your own.

My Answers

  1. Why did you get into blogging?

I love to write and I felt like I had a story that a lot of people can relate to and I thought if I tell it then I would find people similar to me and people can share their experience as well. I love that I have a place that I can write about me and that years from now I can look back on and say “Wow! That was me”. When I started blogging I would say to myself that even if no one reads my blog , I’m just happy that I’m doing something I love.

  1. What inspire your blogs?

My everyday life inspires my blogs. I write about my job, which is babysitting. I do challenges, which causes me to really dig deep and think about how I’m going to answer. I am also going to start writing story times because I have tons of story about stuff that happens in my life it’s crazy, like my family, my natural hair experience, my attempt to uses make up and friends.

  1. If you could be reincarnated into any animal, what animal and why?

I would love to be reincarnated into a lioness. Why I want to be a lioness is because I love lions and one of my favorite movies is “The Lion King” and the lioness on there are so pretty and powerful. They play such a big role in their packs, such as taking care of their young, hunting and fighting for their pack. Lions are kings of the jungle, they are much respected. I think it would be cool to be a queen.

  1. Are you a coffee or tea person?

I am a tea person, green tea is my favorite. I think that coffee is just to strong for me.

  1. What is one thing you want to do but have not done yet and why?

I haven’t made it to the Westside yet but I really want to go because I’ve seen pictures of California and I just want to spend at least a week or two exploring LA. The reason why I haven’t done it yet is that I am not a big fan of planes.

  1. Who is your role model and why?

My mom is my role model. She is a hard working single parent of three kids and the way that she just goes out and work to provide for her family no matter how much her body aches and the obstacles that she has to face, she always makes a way to do things and I really admire her for that and I hope that I have the same drive that my mom has.

  1. If you had to eat one meal for the rest of your life, what would it be?

This is a hard questions because I love food but I would have a loaded salad. My definition of a loaded salad is shredded lettuce, onions, red and green peppers, cherry tomatoes, shredded American cheese and crispy chicken on top with ranch or French dressing. I’m hungry now lol.

  1. What is the last film you watched?

I watched “The Hunchback of Notre-Dame” for the millionth time. It’s such a cute movie. I remember watching it with my little brother when we was younger and it will always be one of my favorite Disney movies. The fact that the person they was thought was a monster turned out to be just a regular person who just wanted to be accepted by people and the person who was a man was actual a horrible person shows you can’t judge a book by its cover.

  1. Any special talents?

I like to think that I am very creative. I love to take on new projects whether its DIY, cooking, hair, clothes you name it I’m probably have attempted to do it. I also of course I asked my little brother and he said that I am creative, so thank you lil bro.  I sing a lot but only in private like the shower or around my house. I am very shy so I doubt I would ever go public with my singing, it’s just something I do for fun, but when I do it like a concert up in here.

  1. What is your favorite quote?

My Favorite quote right now is “Never put off till tomorrow what you can do today” – Thomas Jefferson. This quote is the truth, especially for me because I am a big procrastinator and I say “Oh I’ll do it tomorrow”, but then I keep saying it so I try to say “no I’m going to do it right now”. Tomorrow isn’t promised and I don’t want to think what if I would’ve did this then.

  1. What is your favorite season?

Winter is my favorite season because its cold out and I can wear my sweaters and hoodies with my cute boots. I become ten times more fashionable in the winter. I love the cold weather as well, I can bury myself in covers. I’m just not a big fan of snow.

My Nominees

2. Vanessa Michele

3. Built by Flaws

4. Kinky Curly Coily Queens

5. Pookaluv

My Questions for You

  1. What is your favorite thing about blogging?
  2. What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done?
  3. What is your favorite color?
  4. What is your favorite song?
  5. It’s a rainy day, what are you going to do today?
  6. If you had to go a week without social media… Could you do it?
  7. What makes you happy?
  8. Are you a cake person or do you like pie better?
  9. Are you a people person or do you like to be around a small selection of people?
  10. On average how much sleep do you get a day?
  11. How was your day today?


Have fun!!!!



I Just Can’t….

Weird Quirks of Mine:

–          I can’t go to sleep knowing that there are dishing in the sink, I have to get up and wash them.

–          I can’t deal with people who chew with their mouth open…… please just stop its annoying and I can feel it in my teeth.

–          I can’t sleep without my long pillow at the end bed on my feet. I don’t know why I just can’t.

–          I have to put a mini towel on the floor so that when I get out the shower I have something to put my feet on because I don’t trust rugs since they night have hair or other stuff on them.

–          I don’t like the dish washer because I feel like it doesn’t get the job done so if I get a dish out the dishwasher I have to rinse it off and rewash it.

Day 31 of my  31 day challenge complete! Yaya!

Bucket List 

Top 10:

1.  Learn how to do a backflip.

2. Take a singing class.

3. Take a cooking class.

4. Test drive fast cars.

5. Write a book or two.

6. Go on a shopping spree.

7. Go To Miami, Florida.

8. Go on a hike.

9. Learn how to do my eyebrows so they can be on point at all times.

10. Finish The Drama High Series By L. Divine

Day 29 of my 31 day challenge complete.